Fall into reality
Right now I am eating fried chicken breasts with roasted garlic and yams, while sipping on my French Vanilla Coffee... Yes, I feel it is important to share that I am currently eating, because that is new to me.... For the past week, eating had become something foreign and strange.... Something I was no longer accustomed to doing. My depression got so bad that I didn't want to get up out of bed or even change my clothes or brush my hair, my anxiety was so terrible that I started laying awake all night, sometimes until 7am, and I'd start overthinking, I'd start messaging whoever was awake just because in some strange moment between 2-4am, almost every single night... I feel like I'm drifting off into some non-existence. I am no longer real unless told so. So many pieces of the past have been suddenly resurfacing, old memories better off forgotten, old flames long ago extinguished. It's like I'm being constantly reminded of people and memories that I wish to not