The Original Runaway Heart

I am flying in about 10 hours, and have to awake in 6 1/2... oddly enough, I'm sleepy, I'm not nervous... anxious,yes.. but I believe nervousness is something associated with fear and uncertaincy... Never in my life have I been so certain,so confident, so sure of something. Like a butterfly, breaking from the self enclosement, the walls are finally down, my hardened cucoon made of fear, is finally crumbled and I am perched on that very branch, about to take flight into the sky, rising like the morning sun. You'll notice I use a lot of metaphores, but I believe that's a good thing... to hold onto things and let them symbolize a change in your life. I am making changes. I had  fortune cookie earlier that said " money will come to you when you make the right choices" well, my Aunt sent me the money to get a flight ticket, to escape this nightmare caused by a bitter,hateful family... i made the right choice by asking for help, by asking to be heard. Emotional,verb

My blogging,Ranting... whatever you wish to call it, had started on facebook but I came to do a blog on here instead, showing only those who could give an input I'd actually listen to. Away from the toxicness in my life. I grew up in the town of Moncton, New Brunswick... Canada eh? And for the longest time, I could never imagine going anywhere else, even though I DID go on various camping/hiking trips with my grampy to Nova Scotia. At the age of 18 I gave birth to my beautiful blessing of a child, who was born November 26th, 2010 named Joseph. From the moment I discovered that I would be a mother, I knew it was he and I against the world, that his love would be enough to get me through the hardest choices of my life. I had been in and out of an abusive relationship 3 years before my son was born, and continued into this relationship shortly after my son was born... being stupid enough to really think that  he would change. But it never did, We finally split up and I needed my brea