The Original Runaway Heart

All my troubles are of yesterday... All my problems are solved. At least I get to spend my last bit of time with you... At least we get a proper, sweet goodbye. Goodbye my love. I am going back... facing the monsters, changing them. Shining a light to make them harmless beasts this time. That's right, I'm going back to British Columbia. It's been over a year now, I've become wiser, I've become stronger... I'm not going to let my family step on me again. This time, my ex fiance is coming with me, this time I have more experience to deal with. See, my home town may be where I was born and raised... But I've fully blossomed, fully grown. I can find my own sunshine and plant my roots in new soil. So, by a 4 day bus trip starting August 3rd, we will be gone... gone with the wind. Honestly, I'm excited about seeing Edmonton, seeing the W.E Mall when we take our 10 hour lay-over. I'm excited to see all the cool things on the way, excited to see my family. I

It feels as though I'm slowly awakening from a nightmare. As if the fog is clearing from a seemingly never ending storm. I feel in a sense that I've awoken in a hospital, with stitches on my chest. That my broken runaway heart is finally being healed. See, I've deceived myself time and time again. I like to believe that things are okay, that I know myself completely. I feel like I've looked in the mirror for the first time and finally, finally I see someone I am quite familiar with. As if for the longest time I've been staring in the face of a stranger. Here I am. I've found myself. It took a lot of accusations, yelling,fighting for me to finally see what I've become... But now I have the power to change it. I have the chance to change things. I see what's chasing me this time, before taking flight... before running away with my broken heart. as P!nk says in her song " Just give me a reason"... she says " we're not broken, just bent...