The Original Runaway Heart

I know I haven't been saying much on here lately, and trust me... I do feel awful about it. so here it goes. I've been surrounding myself with work, and by work I mean that I've basically been sucking up to my boss because apparently if one little thing goes wrong, I face being fired. ( yay... not) I've been trying to distract myself as much as possible because I've left a complicated relationship, yet again. This was a while back but like I said, I haven't had the chance to get on here lately. I made a close connection with a wonderful friend and I now have to say goodbye for an uncertain amount of time, as he is moving to a different province... and honestly, it has me torn. Who will I laugh with? Who will I talk to at 3am? Who is going for sit with me until the sun comes up watching Jurassic Park or Beavis and Butthead ? I feel like all great things in life are temporary at this moment in time. I must make myself happy somehow, and I'm not completely ce...

maybe this is what I'm good at... after all, it's what I'm known for, my runaway heart. That poor bastard could only anticipate what was about to happen, however he most likely never saw it coming. I am not  relationship material, not right now and not any time soon. It all started when I met someone by happy coincidence, whom I ended up having to spend a lot of time around. Let's just say that I started taking a liking to this other person, while I happened to be in a relationship. I decided to end the relationship just so that I could freely express my thoughts to this new guy without having the weight of a guilty conscience. It turned into something more than just "expressing my thoughts" ; it turned into a contract. Now, this leaves me confused and uncertain as to where I stand right now, but it was an eye opener. I've gained new experiences and I've learned some new things that I wouldn't know, had I been of stronger will. I noticed something...