Echoes and Whispers
"I can't feel the way I did before. Don't turn your back on me, I won't be ignored. Time won't heal this damage anymore. Don't turn your back on me, I won't be ignored." I feel trapped. I feel like I am suffocating under the pressure to be a person who no longer exists. I want so badly to be here, to be mentally present and I can't... does that make me a failure? I want to scream at the top of my lungs until my throat bleeds, I want to rip my hair out until my scalp is bare. I want to cry until it hurts to breathe, because right now I can't function. My anxiety has spiked. I feel like I am drowning, and no one even cares. I am reaching out for help, begging for someone to notice, to save me... and not a single person cares. I say I'm homesick, what I mean is " I can't do this anymore. This person isn't me, and that's what's being expected of me right now... something that doesn't exist....