The Original Runaway Heart

I've been rambling about random things lately, so I've decided to do a more honest entry, and give you all an update on what's been going on in my life. I almost feel like deleting some of my posts... the ones from the past, where I was suckered into honestly believing that my abusive ex was my prince charming, but then I remind myself... There are almost 4 thousand of you reading this, and some of you go back to the beginning, you wouldn't understand me if it weren't for reading that, and a lot of you relate to that state I was in. So, please just note that I am a different person now, that I am not vulnerable nor am I naive. Thank you.

" the problem with peace isn't that humanity has failed to come to it, it's that we as individuals have failed to come to peace with ourselves" - Deven Melanson-MacDonald (me)

In the end, the only one fighting is you... There is no one else... you are alone in your army of invisible soldiers. No one else wants to fight your battles.

                                                              Wash it all away

Have you ever woke in the middle of the night, in terror? you look around and realize that there is nothing haunting you except for a nightmare you created with your own imagination, your own thoughts? I woke last night, tossing and turning... Sensing that my security had shattered. I looked at my phone, for some reason I had this gut instinct to check it before attempting to fall asleep again. And here is what I saw from my abusive exboyfriend.   I HAVE HIM BLOCKED NOW. " the bottom line Deven is you don't deserve to have Joey in your life...not the way you treated him here...you neglected him constantly left him in your room all the time...you think that stuff can be just swept under the rug like it never happened...well it did...I was there...I saved his life and you fucking know it....you just won't admit to it just like everything else...and now just because you doing somewhat better you think you deserve the mother of the year award..." -words of a manipulativ